Getting there . .  This is my first youtube upload!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2WTx3MeF0PE

Me singing Make you feel by love, Adele's version
7th July 2011 at Buttershaw Business and Enterprise College in Bradford
Fundraising for Rock Challenge!

Enjoy :D <3

Its feeling good!

Standing on thin ice
looking for somewhere safe
lost and abandoned
then some hope
my attention redirected
pulled to security
found what i was looking for
placed back together
and now i'm sure

It's real this time!

When I glance at you and you catch me just in time
The butterflies liven
they flutter and race
reminding me of my love for you
they will forever dance
like the flame of a candle
they glow and warm me through
as they'll never forget
how you mended my broken heart
and in return they put the smile back on your face ;)

A Melody

I am going to try and write more general poems now rather than emotional rants, here goes . . .

A melody so strong and meaningful
finds its way to my ears and my heart
I wraps me up into a tight sense of security
It finds life in me for others to see
There is no sound just the feeling
and only I know how comforting it is
and I hope and pray I know this comfort a long time

Happy Days

The poem It Never Stops is now meaningless
It was a time where I had a lot on my mind
whereas now I have just one thing on my mind
The love of my life

Baby . . .
you've set me free
you say all of the right things
you make me feel loved
I now belong
I have a purpose
all the pain has been worth it
my heart races
just like yours
i didn't feel worthy
i was damaged goods
like i was used and broke
but you reverse those feelings
you complete me
and I'll tell you every day.

Just a Thought

Love's a tricky game
Play it right
One foot grounded
Use your head in conjunction with your heart

It Never stops

Roller Coasters
My Life
Upside Down
Can't Think
Need to Clear my Mind
What do I want?
I didn't want you!
I would Have liked to Have had him
But he Didn't want Me
I'll settle for Him
I feel I've always had a Connection
It's Just growing  . . .

Moving on right?

I want to know who you are
I want to be in tune with your melody
my heart should beat the same rhythm as yours
I'm no good at this
I'm trying to figure out how to be
what words to say
what things to do
I'd like you to see the real me
and help me find who I want to be
I'm unsteady, I'm brand new
these unsure feelings I have
I want them to vanish
I want a fresh start

A new friend

I met you at drama
Your completely like me
it's scary how much we have in common
and already so many memories
It's getting Hot in here :))
so take off all your clothes
Baby cake I just don't know know, How I, I, I love you so
8 out of 10 :')
Best week of my life
We are already great friends
I hope we grow closer
Your amazing! :)) xxxxx

It's a shame

I feel like we're growing apart
there's a great big wedge between us
I dread to think what'll happen when you move up and I'll be left behind
what about the plaits?
I feel like I'm being sidelined by her sarcasm
I'm not jealous I'm just gonna have to learn to live with it
I thought we'd keep close
but things don't always go swimmingly in life do they?

A Flashback

I'm not sure what I was doing at the time
But I can remember the vision vividly
It was like looking through a crystal ball so the sight was rounded
It was blurry too like a dream
We were there laid on the ground
We were doing exactly the same,
those spare moments we had before he came back
because you had been selfish and brought him
I hadn't seen you for a while
every moment was precious
you knew this and you brought him!

The weird thing was that I felt the exact same emotion
exactly the same pattern of butterflies
I actually felt like I was laying down, a hard surface against my back
but it wasn't the same grassy hill, or at least I didn't feel the grass
maybe because at the time I wasn't taking much notice of the grass
because you had my attention,
like you had had the majority of the period of time I spent with you
It felt amazing and depressing at the same time
I try not to think
but it was a flashback
at least that's what I think it was

I've never experienced something like that before
I'll never forget it.

Out of My Mind

I was out of my mind
I only spoke to you because you reminded me of him
You mentioned heavy metal - Ugh! I hate heavy metal!
But it was like being with him again
I wanted him stood in your place
I tell myself I'm over it
but I'm not
I push you to the back of my mind
and when I'm upset for whatever reason
your back to haunt me
Please just get out of my mind!

An extra verse of a poem - written by Navdeep Dhaliwal :')

Look what you've made of me,
If you would look you would see,
I'm lying on the floor,
Unable to breathe anymore,
The broken pieces of my heart,
Held together by performing art.

A Variation on Heart Break - My Poem :')

I’m in a Labyrinth of excitement

I love the Challenge

I crave the unity and the wholeness

I never want to believe in anything else but this

I accept everything I’m told

I try my hardest

I feel exhilarated

To find everything is untrue

Everyone you know has backstabbed

Laughed at my expense

Like the walls of my world are being removed brick by brick

I’m trying my best to clutch, hold it all together

I forgive and try to forget

I want back the dream I first had

But that’s exactly what it was, a dream

To try and find a solution but get fed up

To want to exit the Labyrinth but I can’t

Something is holding me back

I don’t know if it’s the confusion or the feeling I’m going to miss more

I’m being played with, like a cat would a mouse

And I don’t know if it really was me he wanted

But I’m feeling better to have done the right thing

I hurting inside

I want him to hurt too, to regret decisions

I thought I knew you inside and out

But I’ll never understand you

All I want now is closure

Not just a sister

When you were born
I took an oath
to love and  protect you
To care and look after you
to pick you up when your down
to make you smile when you frown
So whenever you need me I'll be around
because I love you!

A message

I’m watching the city pass me by

I’m trying to find my feet

I want to succeed in this world

I don’t like being stopped in my tracks

I do whatever I need to do to get to where I want to be

And if you’re in my way, if you try to stop me

You won’t get me down

You’re just a small hurdle on the road to success 

That's it! - A Poem

I can't stand it
I can't take it anymore!
I've put up with more than enough
and for far too long
I thought I understood you
I thought I knew you inside and out
we matched - like two pieces of a jigsaw
We had it all
I don't know why it didn't work for you
was I not enough
or did you just not care
I just don't know

Real Friendship - a poem

Joint at the hip
as good as sisters
we argue
we fall out
we stand by each other
we are there for each other
got each other's backs
I plait your hair, you plait mine right? ;)
we know everything there is to know
we don't drop each other when we get bored
we know the meaning of true friendship

Did I Do It? - Monologue

I sat silently on the red furnished chair waiting in anticipation. The room was full of other hopefuls wanting to make it just like me. I looked at some girls and knew I didn't stand a chance but surely I had to have some hope. My legs felt shaky and the palms of my hands were sweating with nerve. I'd done my audition, really tried hard I did. Sang my heart out and the monologue I performed was written by myself. Almost all about me, tried to do it close to home so I could really feel it.Deliver it with some kind of emotion. I looked around the room once more and there were so many of the other girls all far more talented than I was. The more I waited the more nervous I became.It seemed to be like hours . . .  until I heard my name being called. I walked into the room slowly and apprehensively to find my fate. What I was feeling at that moment I honestly couldn't say. I just hoped I'd done it.

A Performance - Poem

A capsule of passion
in my heart
I walk onto stage
lights shine in my eyes
I feel it
I do my thing
I entertain
I perform
I deliver
the adrenaline rush
the blood pumps through my veins
I love it
it's what I wanna be!

In My Eyes - A Poem

Look me in the eyes
What do you see
Do you really know me
Do you really know how I see the world
Can I trust
Am I safe
or is the trust, the love an the passion a figment of my imagination
in fact am I imagining
because that is what I'd like you to be
is that how I would like to see you
almost apart of me

Heartbreak - Poem

I’m in a Labyrinth of excitement

I love the Challenge

I crave the unity and the wholeness

I never want to believe in anything else but this

I accept everything I’m told

I try my hardest

I feel exhilarated

To find everything is untrue

Everyone you know has backstabbed

Laughed at my expense

Like the walls of my world are being removed brick by brick

I’m trying my best to clutch, hold it all together

I forgive and try to forget

I want back the dream I first had

But that’s exactly what it was, a dream

To try and find a solution but get fed up

To want to exit the Labyrinth but I can’t

Something is holding me back

I don’t know if it’s the confusion or the feeling I’m going to miss more

Is it me he wanted or a girl friend?